It's been exactly a year since I quit my job. At 4:30 today one year ago I walked out of a job I held for 6 years and stepped into a position I had no idea what to do with. It wasn't by my own power that I quit. No. God had been working on my heart for several months. Growing my faith, bringing me closer to Him so when the time came I would be able to say Yes Lord. Yes, I will go..choose me. At the time He chose me I had passion. Passion for my family. Passion for my Church. Passion for worship. Passion burning so deep in my heart that I felt as if I were going to burst. Passion to spread the Word. Passion to speak the very words of Christ so that no soul on this earth would die. I wanted to do something mighty and powerful for the Kingdom of God and when God chose me and called me out of that job I was ready. I was afraid...but I was ready. I had no idea what came next. I had no idea what tomorrow held, but I was ready.
It's been exactly a year since that day, since that passion burned bright...and today I ask myself, what do I have to show for this year. Have I wasted it being so afraid to step out...have I gotten so bogged down in the diaper changing, dishes washing floor vaccuuming that I've lost the passion? I look in the mirror and I don't even know the person looking back...where's the passion?
But God.
But God says it's there. He says I've been moving and working towards my purpose and He says He's perfecting me. It's hard to believe Him when all I see is a house wife but maybe I'm still in that mindset, the worldly mindset that says "what are you doing, staying at home won't get you anywhere in this world"
I want to be powerful. I want to raise above the world and do something amazing. Let me assure you this isn't about pride though, yes I have a lot of pride but this is about the passion that I feel still burning in my heart. It may be only a flicker but it's there...the passion for my Lord. I feel it...
So what do I have to show for this year...has it been a waste? I say no. I say get behind me Satan. I say I've learned so much in this year about myself. About my kids and about my husband that I would have never learned had it not been for my Savior. I know more about my calling than ever before. I've said before I will NEVER bash the working mom. I will support and uphold her because that was me...but for my life and this season I see now what God was and is STILL teaching me.
A mother's job one of the most important job's in the world. She raises her children in the morning and her mood sets the whole day. If the mother chooses to read scripture with her children, her children will listen, a mother's voice is a powerful instrument. Her children follow her lead, whereever she is they want to be...the world calls this a burden...our burden to bear...an annoyance but God shows me that this is the way we raise our children for Him. They are always watching us, they are always with us. Every single mood, action, word that comes out of our hearts the children sees and they mimick. I am not a perfect mother. Some days I want to throw in the towel. Throw up my hands and give - up. Some days you can find me screaming into my pillow, tears streaming down my face wishing for the Lord to come and take me away. Some days I have such strong regret with how I've treated my children that I can't breath. But God. But God has been teaching me in those moments, and the dishes, laundry and diaper moments to turn my attention to Him. To cry out to Him and praise Him for those daily jobs. NOTHING is insignificant in HIS Kingdom. Everything has a purpose. Everything we do we need to give to the Lord. There is NO condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus...and ladies we are IN Christ Jesus.
I said today I'm reflecting on a lot...I'm reflecting on this year. I'm reflecting on my faith. I'm reflecting on my passion. I am no where near where I would like to be but through God's grace I will stand up today and I will dust off my shoulders, pick myself up and move forward because that passion is still there. I work for the Lord. You dear sister princess work for the Lord and we are powerful powerful daughters of the King. Raise your family with passion. Raise your family for the Lord. Raise your family Kingdom minded.
I am a daughter of the King and I am raising His children to be powerful, fearless Christian's who will one day advance the Lord's Kingdom...I AM a powerful, fearless, passionate follower of Jesus.
Get behind me Satan, you have no power here any longer. I am a daughter of the King, and HE is my strength.
"Get behind me Satan, you have no power here any longer. I am a daughter of the King, and HE is my strength." AMEN!!
ReplyDeleteI remember that day a year ago. I can't believe it has been a year already. I think the most important job a mother has, whether she works outside the home or not, is to be a missionary for her children.
This was a very encouraging & empowering post. It has been just over a year ago that I left the work force to be a stay at home mom before my daughter was born. The work we do at home and time we devote to our kids is a glorious sight in the eyes of the Lord even though our worldly eyes may not see it.
ReplyDeleteI loved what you said about a mother's voice is a powerful instrument. I am working hard with my daughter on listening. If our children listen to us they will be more apt to listen and hear the Lord's voice, too.
Mandy,
ReplyDeleteThis such a transparently powerful post. We all struggle with similar things, we wonder we wonder of we are doing the right thing, or making the right choices if we have wasted the life God has given us. Thank you for sharing it spoke to me letting me know I was not alone.
Blessings.